My Journey Back to Myself

2/31/15

I feel that I have strayed from myself. I work too much.  I spend too much.  The cycle is slowly killing me.  I am so busy that when I have the chance to do something that I enjoy, I end up parking myself in front of the computer or the TV.  I turn down dance parties with the kids and the chance to make penguin cupcakes because my feet hurt, I'm tired, I work early tomorrow, or countless other excuses.  My house is so unorganized and cluttered that I let my 20 month old color on my math notebook from my online college course - from four years ago - so that I could attempt to match the beach tote full of unpaired socks.  I think that bag is going to find the trash, but I digress.

Life has become chaotic and spontaneous in all the ways that I don't want.  I spend at lest 5 minutes every morning looking for my shoes, my work pants, my keys, the kid's mittens, or the baby's stuffed rabbit.  When I do make it out the door, I have forgotten to eat breakfast and left my coffee on top of the car.  I am frazzled.  I never used to be like this, but then again, I never tried to work two jobs with 3 small children at home and one heading to college in a semester.  

There are so many things that I want to do.  I want to go back to school, write a novel, finish a quilt for my mom, publish a cookbook, resume my Project Life book, take the kids to Disney World, foster animals, sell my cute handmade items on Etsy again, and maybe try out some of those make-up tutorials on YouTube.  These are all things that I could do, if I made the time for them.  Ever since getting divorced, going back to school, and re-entering the work force I feel that I have completely stopped most of the things I used to do.  I used to be Mommy the Maid with a successful blog titled "Mommy the Maid."  I wrote sponsored posts about being a mom and housewife, shared recipes from my grandmother's cookbook, and shared my successes and failures being an entrepreneur with my own Etsy store.  My blog contained my life with excerpts and photos of my recipes, short stories, handmade goods, and family vacations.  I organized my closets and posted pictures and tips for others to read.  I miss those those closets.  Now I have to wear a hard hat to enter my bedroom closet.  But I digress...again.

My New Years Resolution for 2016 is to make big changes and I plan to document these changes on Daily Two Cents.  I will share my progress, my set-backs, and my successes with the Daily Two Cents community.  Follow along with me as I pour out my personal journey into words for all the world to see.  I take these steps boldly, yet cautiously.  Here we go!